KING OF HEARTS

Lyrics

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BOX

I'm staring at a box
So is my mother. My sisters too
A wooden box painted light blue
I'm sweating in my suit. So many people in the room
The microphone won't work
Just crashes all the words
Coming from my cousin
He's at the podium
Not like he wasn't already stuttering
Because his eyes were watering
Watering because the thought
That I know that we both got

And all the light that you gave me
Has tanned my soul completely
It all came from your heart
But now it's just so dark
I'll grow paler than chalk
I'm staring at box containing something that I loved

My dad's giving me a nod
Guess that means that it is my time
To come up
I'm handed my guitar
Everyone's trying to look through me as if I will get them far
And I sing Amazing Grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
The crowd's expressions darker
Than the clothes they wear
As I play each trembling note

And all the light that you gave me
Has tanned my soul completely
It all came from your heart
But now it's just so dark
I'll grow paler than chalk
I'm staring at box containing something that I loved

And all the light that you gave me
Has tanned my soul completely
It all came from your heart
But now it's just so dark
I'll grow paler than chalk
I'm staring at box containing something that I loved

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STRONGER

I'm in a church but the only god I see is marble
The words fade away into my daydreams. Yeah, that's normal
My father holds a songbook up to me signaling to read
You know I'd love to share but it's never felt just right to me

Maybe I'd feel just different if the music we sang had a beat
I've never wanted to clap my hands most people don't even want to sing
Or maybe it's just that everyone in the room looks the same as me
A lot of hairspray and expensive gowns, suit and tie, and I won't open my mouth about it
My ex told me her church had real people, real stories
Wasn't a fashion show but healing people and showing glory
And if I went there would my faith be strong and would my thoughts be holy?
All I know is that I want this mass to be over 'cause he doesn't know me

Why can't I see?
Is there something wrong with me?
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now
Hard for me to believe
When I'm without your company
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now

It seems that everyone around me can just see it clearly
All my teachers, even Chance, Ben, and all my family
And all my enemies, they can't recite a word from the gospels
They worship Jordans, Apple, followers, but not a Bible
I worship my music, but I've never felt like it's enough
I see my idols doing what they love in the name of God
I'll never forget my cousins telling me that they like to go to church
My old self didn't understand the building had its worth
But now my body will enter but my soul feels just locked outside
It spends the mass wondering what went wrong with arms open wide
I'm looking the priest eye to eye
I want him to just to me why
That I can stare at him, but my creator's hiding in the sky


Why can't I see?
Is there something wrong with me?
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now
It's hard for me to believe
When I'm without your company
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now

I just want to by happy
When I'm in your house with family
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now
Something that they hide?
That makes me feel so left behind?
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now

Why can't I see?
Something wrong with me
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now
For me to believe
When I'm without your company
Let my faith be stronger
My faith ain't strong now

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Picture

I'm home
I'm not greeted with my name
Just my air conditioners howling
No footsteps up above
I know your in bed on your phone
But I used to see you out the window
Now I only see your contact photo
I know you're down the hall
Don't you ever want to see me?
More than a magazine or movie?
Oh, can't you just get up

Although I'll text you
It's not the same as its supposed to be
You're only on a screen
And you know I'm not complete
When you're only a picture to me

The gloves she gave me ripped
It feels like the day her eyes broke
From the memories I have known
She looked like an animal ready to pounce
Onto what we used to have
And I haven't seen her since
And my gloves are reflecting it
Just like the way it's making me cold
I know I'll never get to hold her hands anymore

Although I'll see her
It's not the same as it used to be
You're only on a screen
And you know I'm not complete
When you're only a picture to me

Although I'll text you
It's not the same as it used to be
You're only on a screen
And you know I'm not complete
When you're only a picture to me
You're only a picture

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rain

I saw a passion
Inside their eyes
Like a sword for combat
Was inside their signs
And I saw a crowd
A militia of spoken words how
The man who would bring us all down
Would make the world
Stop going round

But it looks the same
To me either way
Like how the windows of Back Bay
They shine in the day
Or cry in the rain
And I won’t pray
And I won’t pray
For the world to be the same
Cause I know it will
We’re just stuck in the rain

And I see a storm coming
It comes from the mouths of those who warn it
And its not the strike of lightning
That burns down someone else’s house
Its the deafening thunder
News saying crouch down
And I know the world will keep on turning

And it looks the same
To me either way
Like how the windows of Back Bay
They shine in the day
Or cry in the rain
And I won’t pray
And I won’t pray
For the world to be the same
'Cause I know it will
We’re just stuck in the rain

And it looks the same
To me either way
Like how the windows of Back Bay
They shine in the day
Or cry in the rain
And I won’t pray
And I won’t pray
For the world to be the same
'Cause I know it will
We’re just stuck in the rain

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In between cars

My friends
Include the crisp air under the parking light
Dancing through the night
And the streets I skate
Urban magic carpet race
All the headlights whizzing by me
Flashing neon fills the sky scene
And I can't get enough
It seems I've fallen in love with running from my home ain't that just something
My demons they stay there

But after all, I'll still come back home
But my escapes give me more comfort
Skating in between cars, I find that I'm more calm
Than sitting in my bed where I cannot escape my own head

And my friends
Don't understand why I go out so late
Every single day
Or why I go out in the piercing hail
Or the pouring rain
But if I can't control anything
At least I can control how fast my wheels are spinning

But after all, I'll still come back home
But my escapes give me more comfort
Skating in between cars, I find that I'm more calm
Than sitting in my bed where I cannot escape my own head

But after all, I'll still come back home
But my escapes give me more comfort
Skating in between cars, I find that I'm more calm
Than sitting in my bed where I cannot escape my own head

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